Family members that get on my nerves
They can’t leave me alone about my clothing choices and constantly yell at me that I’m inappropriately dressed and where do I think I am going the way I am dressed? They make demands and think of it as offering suggestions. My mother is also thinking it’s ok to put her hands on me when she thinks she is bringing something to my attention and I negate her and tell her to knock it off. I put my hands on her right back and give it back to her. Just because I am their ward. It doesn’t give them the right to be control freaks and not let me be an individual. They make these stupid rules about my clothing. Yes my freaking clothing. Don’t wear xyz at the table and they tell me it’s not the season for winter coats hats scarves and Ugg boots in August when it’s cold outside . My sister makes comments like holy shit when she sees me dressed warmly and bundled up. She is rude. She laughed at me for wearing my robes hood on in the. House and said I looked like a kid in a onesie. My mother said the next step is getting a burqa to cover my face since I cover everything else. My parents are so rude. I’m sick of being mocked. My mother mocks me when I don’t speak clearly and my dad says take the rocks out of your mouth when I don’t speak up. She says oh be careful for freezer burn when I went out today dressed in my winter attire sarcastically. My parents are really sarcastic and they mock me, name call me, denigrate me, and patronize me. They also get me gifts and take me out places. But my mother is refusing to take me out anymore if I don’t change the way I dress with her. My parents don’t love me unconditionally. I have to meet their requirements for them to be happy with me. I don’t need to follow any requirements of theirs concerning the way I dress. I have to change a lot of other habits though. My parents are supposed to be looking out for my welfare but make me feel so
Angry sometimes. I wish I never let them take guardianship sometimes. My guardians are not supposed to treat me like this. I shouldn’t feel belittled and disrespected by my. Guardians. I need to learn to take care of myself. So that the guardianship doesn’t get reinstated every year they are alive. I’m scared to take care of myself and the responsibility that comes with it. I wonder how I will ever handle it. But I need to because the alternative. Is worse. They die and I become.a ward of the state and get sent to live in a group home where I have no freedom independence or autonomy. My mother takes pictures of my clothing as proof to the clinicians that I am dysfunctional which is so obnoxious. I am not changing how I dress just because my parents think it’s inappropriate. I’m not changing myself over my clothes because strangers think I’m weird or crazy. I’m done with the third degree. I’m sick of my parents saying I have to be overheating and must be sweating. And perspiring. When I’m. Just fine. My crazy parents who mask their critical, controlling tendencies as concerns for my welfare. I’m tired of being tried to being coerced into someone I am not. They. Accepted my disabillitirs. but don’t accept the way I dress. I also feel they don’t understand me and that I am a wolf sleep chronotype and that having energy earlier in the day is not just a matter of me going to bed earlier at night and waking up earlier in the day. I also have sensor parents as an infp or infj which make us clash in how we interact with and see the world. I know they paid for everything I have almost minus a few things I bought myself with few hours gig money. I need to finish my courses in order to find a part time flexible work arrangement. I also feel reluctant to work with the department of mental health state agency except for help with subsidized housing because I have flexibility with psychiatric nurse practitioners and therapists at spectrum nuerobehavioral care with my scheduling in the afternoons and virtual appointments on zoom and the department of mental health does appointments on site counseling and medication management. They do have case managers come to the house and peer support specialists come to the house to help with life skills I think.,their day program is too early.one starting at 9 am and an unstructured one at 11am. I could try to become independent without DMH and give myself the motivation to cook, clean, and wash laundry. And ask my parents to help me learn how to pay my own bills, taxes, and insurance. And how to do household shopping and household maintenance. And keep continuing on my online courses so I can get freelance/independent contractor work with remote work from anywhere location. With flexible scheduling with proofreading and editing among other types of work. If I pass and finish the final exams, I get a work trial at proofed. And if I pass that., I’m a full fledged freelancer on their platform and can take more complicated and longer work. It would be nice to make an income from intellectually stimulating and creative work. I would do well with work like proofreading/editing, writing/blogging, translation , transcription, and much more. My parents care about me in other regards. But are control freaks when it comes to how I dress and will not leave me alone and can be quite rude and obnoxious when I. Just give them an indignant stare. They act mean when I don’t answer their questions right away and get pushy. And are like I asked you a question answer me. The outside world doesn’t see this side of them and all they see are two.supportive parents who continued supporting financially supporting their daughter well into adult age. I mean yes they do care about what happens to me and my sister After they die, but damn are they obnoxious to me sometimes. I don’t care if they are frustrated, this is no way to behave. People might say develop thicker skin but I shouldn’t. Have to deal with this shit just because they are legally responsible for me. I know I. Frustrate them but they need to leave my clothing alone. There are much more important issues to worry about.
Angry sometimes. I wish I never let them take guardianship sometimes. My guardians are not supposed to treat me like this. I shouldn’t feel belittled and disrespected by my. Guardians. I need to learn to take care of myself. So that the guardianship doesn’t get reinstated every year they are alive. I’m scared to take care of myself and the responsibility that comes with it. I wonder how I will ever handle it. But I need to because the alternative. Is worse. They die and I become.a ward of the state and get sent to live in a group home where I have no freedom independence or autonomy. My mother takes pictures of my clothing as proof to the clinicians that I am dysfunctional which is so obnoxious. I am not changing how I dress just because my parents think it’s inappropriate. I’m not changing myself over my clothes because strangers think I’m weird or crazy. I’m done with the third degree. I’m sick of my parents saying I have to be overheating and must be sweating. And perspiring. When I’m. Just fine. My crazy parents who mask their critical, controlling tendencies as concerns for my welfare. I’m tired of being tried to being coerced into someone I am not. They. Accepted my disabillitirs. but don’t accept the way I dress. I also feel they don’t understand me and that I am a wolf sleep chronotype and that having energy earlier in the day is not just a matter of me going to bed earlier at night and waking up earlier in the day. I also have sensor parents as an infp or infj which make us clash in how we interact with and see the world. I know they paid for everything I have almost minus a few things I bought myself with few hours gig money. I need to finish my courses in order to find a part time flexible work arrangement. I also feel reluctant to work with the department of mental health state agency except for help with subsidized housing because I have flexibility with psychiatric nurse practitioners and therapists at spectrum nuerobehavioral care with my scheduling in the afternoons and virtual appointments on zoom and the department of mental health does appointments on site counseling and medication management. They do have case managers come to the house and peer support specialists come to the house to help with life skills I think.,their day program is too early.one starting at 9 am and an unstructured one at 11am. I could try to become independent without DMH and give myself the motivation to cook, clean, and wash laundry. And ask my parents to help me learn how to pay my own bills, taxes, and insurance. And how to do household shopping and household maintenance. And keep continuing on my online courses so I can get freelance/independent contractor work with remote work from anywhere location. With flexible scheduling with proofreading and editing among other types of work. If I pass and finish the final exams, I get a work trial at proofed. And if I pass that., I’m a full fledged freelancer on their platform and can take more complicated and longer work. It would be nice to make an income from intellectually stimulating and creative work. I would do well with work like proofreading/editing, writing/blogging, translation , transcription, and much more. My parents care about me in other regards. But are control freaks when it comes to how I dress and will not leave me alone and can be quite rude and obnoxious when I. Just give them an indignant stare. They act mean when I don’t answer their questions right away and get pushy. And are like I asked you a question answer me. The outside world doesn’t see this side of them and all they see are two.supportive parents who continued supporting financially supporting their daughter well into adult age. I mean yes they do care about what happens to me and my sister After they die, but damn are they obnoxious to me sometimes. I don’t care if they are frustrated, this is no way to behave. People might say develop thicker skin but I shouldn’t. Have to deal with this shit just because they are legally responsible for me. I know I. Frustrate them but they need to leave my clothing alone. There are much more important issues to worry about.
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