I Am Divorced
One Year... June 12, 2012, one year since everything was legally final.
In some ways it was over much sooner than that, and yet in many ways it is still not over. I am not sure if it ever will be.
There are many different angles to the divorce question but in the end you have to weigh the lesser of the evils.
'Two is better than one' comes to mind. Does that still apply if the two fail to work together, to the point where they actually undermine one another? How much can two people together accomplish when they are jealous? or when they undermine each other? When it becomes a competition? When they intentionally hurt each other?
Is 1.24 better than 2 people at odds?
The question is, do I love this person enough to sacrifice myself?
Another, am i doing it all by myself anyways?
Trying to do it alone with 2 people is a struggle.
Can I live with myself afterwards...
can i ever forgive myself?
To the therapist Wednesday.
:)
In some ways it was over much sooner than that, and yet in many ways it is still not over. I am not sure if it ever will be.
There are many different angles to the divorce question but in the end you have to weigh the lesser of the evils.
'Two is better than one' comes to mind. Does that still apply if the two fail to work together, to the point where they actually undermine one another? How much can two people together accomplish when they are jealous? or when they undermine each other? When it becomes a competition? When they intentionally hurt each other?
Is 1.24 better than 2 people at odds?
The question is, do I love this person enough to sacrifice myself?
Another, am i doing it all by myself anyways?
Trying to do it alone with 2 people is a struggle.
Can I live with myself afterwards...
can i ever forgive myself?
To the therapist Wednesday.
:)
51-55, F
