I had to be very tough for many days now. I need my soft self back. I have been emotionally drained out of every ounce of joy tending to

Miserable situations., and dealing with very toxic dynamics.

I am losing touch with my child self and I absolutely dislike that. So I am going to give myself some me time and open up and lower my guard.

I had a nightmare trying to save a kid from his abuser. It happened in an isolated farm and I had to take the child kilometers away both of us on feet while the abuser was tracking us down.

It was a very realistic dream and I recognize the places

I am aware why I had it. Recently I have gotten involved in something related and it is incredibly overwhelming. This world is too cruel.

I have a lot to think about. Nothing new there.

I signed up to get deployed to Sudan in a medical charity organization. It is not a final decision and I haven't yet discussed it with the people that would be affected by it. I don't know how I would go about talking about it as I don't like being controlled when it comes to these issues. And this not my first time. But it's different when you have more to lose.