Little Angel baby

He's so perfect, sweet and beautiful and innocent and he deserves so much better than I can apparently give him. And it makes me so sad. Birthing him and seeing him come into this world have made me happier than ever. It's what I always wanted and thought I'd never have. He's my little miracle. I don't know what kind of message God is trying to send me with these life circumstances, assuming there is a God, but I'm not getting it.