i am crurious and concerned

i have a cousin in law of mines that my family go out the way for .Today after i cooked dinner she called me to see if i could watch her children until she goes to the store remind you all the stores a re closed near by the closes store is a 45 minute drive.

i came up with an excuse to take my bf to the doctor simply because i dont want to be bothered plus im not feeling well neither does anybody in my house hold .

my older sister came in and told me that she was keeping my cousin kids for the night and she had school in the morning and i also have school online just like my cousin .

how should i go about doing this because i feel like they know something that i dont know like how does she know that im not going to be busy tomorrow or have something planned .

i have noticed that my college has not called me and i attempted to reach out to them using my house phone and everytime i use the phone everybody always make an excuse to use the only phone i have available.

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Amylynne · 26-30, F

It sounds like you’re in a place without a lot of control. I think you might be able to make things different by asking that if your help is needed that you learn about it ahead of time
It would be better for your life, if you could plan when you were looking out for your cousins children. Are there no other relatives that can do this?

Dabelletree909 · 26-30

@Amylynne i totally agree but everyone feels like i should not have a say so over anything . i often try to talk to people and they either shrug mr off or dont take me serious but wants me to do everything .

Amylynne · 26-30, F

@Dabelletree909 Is it impossible for you to live on your own? Enough work to pay for a place to live that you were not sharing?

Dabelletree909 · 26-30

@Amylynne yes but that information is on my other post on my account about my living situation . to answer your question yes it is possible to live on my own and yes i have been working every job i have had i got harassed and mistreated because somebody in my house hold filled them in on things about me that weren't true and they believed it and also my car was wrecked all the money i have or have been making is going on my car to be fixed from scratch because insurance was bullshitting and the guy that fixed my car was a know crack head and my mom ex bf was selling it to him . also they made a deal about my car without me knowing just to fix my stepdads car because the car is not even in my name is was given to me on graduation day from my grandpa.

Dabelletree909 · 26-30

Any i hear all the fucking time that a car is like a place to stay and after 2 near death experiences i promised myself that if i have to stay in the car again i was going to off my self . where i am from they dont have any where for you to park except at a visiting station and you have to pay a fee to park overnight . i midess well get a hotel room for that price.

Dabelletree909 · 26-30

and rent here is so high that rich white people are complaining about it , you look up east Texas rent and its the highest in the fucking USA. my last job i was getting paid $600 a month and low income housing is $400 a month . also section 8 housing is so messed up down here all the people on section 8 are related and they wont let new people live there for health concerns because they know if your not from the area people are going to mess with you . i am by myself and not armed and they told me that that is not going to happen so they suggested to sending me to a homeless shelter where i would have to pay $300 every 2 weeks to stay there and they have to do a car search before they let you in the shelter . note:there is nothing in my car but like come on....

Amylynne · 26-30, F

@Dabelletree909 It is absolutely horrible and it’s beginning to happen all over the country recent changes have forest regular decent people and what is effectively homelessness because who can afford rats all over the country. You’re getting us an East Texas! I mean we’re not even talking about some hot new place to live I don’t know

Amylynne · 26-30, F

@Dabelletree909 It does sound like some of your challenge comes from some of your relatives. And with the stress of crushing rents and doubtless other things it’s hard to even think straight

Dabelletree909 · 26-30

@Amylynne right exactly yes . i think i am also on the verge of going insane at times and plus from a bad wreck i had a couple years back it has took a toll on my body . i see in spots and its hard to remember things and the things i remember most are the bad things from what im told .