Copy/pasting this response into a post because it means a lot to me.
When I was a small child, I dreamt that my parents took me and my siblings on a walk. We found a rainbow. I walked into it, and it teleported me to my parents' bedroom.
The next day, I told my mom about the dream, and her heart melted as she said "Awww".
I'm tearing up reading your post and typing this because that dream meant that I associated my parents' bedroom with safety and happiness, just like I associated my parents themselves with safety and happiness. And I think my mom picked up on that back then.
I was happy, and too young to not trust my family.
Things are different now. I've learned not to trust them. Our relationship is awkward. I am not happy. I wish things were like they used to be back when I had that dream about the rainbow.
I am ugly-crying now.
https://similarworlds.com/family/mothers/5695219-yesterday-on-my-10-hr-drive-i-was-eyeing-this-suspiciously
The next day, I told my mom about the dream, and her heart melted as she said "Awww".
I'm tearing up reading your post and typing this because that dream meant that I associated my parents' bedroom with safety and happiness, just like I associated my parents themselves with safety and happiness. And I think my mom picked up on that back then.
I was happy, and too young to not trust my family.
Things are different now. I've learned not to trust them. Our relationship is awkward. I am not happy. I wish things were like they used to be back when I had that dream about the rainbow.
I am ugly-crying now.
https://similarworlds.com/family/mothers/5695219-yesterday-on-my-10-hr-drive-i-was-eyeing-this-suspiciously
