I don't know what to feel

My brother is coming to town this Friday.

I haven't seen him since I left our suburb 14 years ago.

Makes me laugh almost. Our family is so...strange.

None of us have "object permanence".

Basically...if we didn't see it, it didn't exist.

We can go years without seeing each other and the moment we do....it is like nothing has changed.

Truly I believe it is trauma based but,

Nothing is resolved there yet so it will stay a "but,"

He was 36 when I last saw him...truly crazy to me since I am older than that now.

He was 36 with two kids.

And now....

How strange.

Strange how life moves.

He is just coming to get some of our moms ashes.

Otherwise...we would probably never see each other again.