Some things can hurt and feel good at once.
I'm happy to be around family during Easter even if they treat me like crap.
The way a couple of them looked right past me to smile and wave at someone else hurts, and reminds me of the horrible ways they've treated me in the past.
But with all the noise and this many people around, I'm also reminded of when I was a child and too young to recognize all the issues. Sure I was upset sometimes but it was a simpler time.
I acknowledge both. The hurt and the joy.
The way a couple of them looked right past me to smile and wave at someone else hurts, and reminds me of the horrible ways they've treated me in the past.
But with all the noise and this many people around, I'm also reminded of when I was a child and too young to recognize all the issues. Sure I was upset sometimes but it was a simpler time.
I acknowledge both. The hurt and the joy.
