Mistakes of the Past

My grandmother wasn't around much when my mom and her siblings were kids. My grandmother preferred to party, drink, and cheat on her husband. By the time I was born, my grandmother had stopped the party lifestyle and the heavy drinking and became heavily involved in my mom's life and mine as well, but by that point, my mom was the only one of her kids who still talked to her. On the other hand, my mom would often focus on me when I was a kid, mostly due to me having autism and her constantly worrying about me, which led to her to often neglect my siblings. That pattern would stay the same as I continued to grow up. I'm an adult now, but like my grandmother, my mom now only has one child who talks to her(me). if I ever have kids(I doubt I will), I don't want to make the same mistakes my grandmother did(neglecting all her children to party and drink and cheat) or the same mistakes my mom did(neglect you other children to focus on just one). I want to be better. Not to say I don't appreciate everything my mom and grandmother did for me, and I do love them, I just want to be the best parent I can be if I ever become one.