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I never got to see my parents get old...

I still saw them suffer.

I guess, for a few months now, I've been considering letting them go.

I used to miss them and talk to them. I grieved hard for years. For awhile I kinda identified myself by that loss. Since they died within a year of each other and I was younger, had a young child, I felt pretty ripped off in life in the only way that really mattered to me.

Now I just hope wherever they are that they have peace. I hope they have no reason or idea to stay attached to me.

It's enough that I see them in myself 🖤

Even with their faults, they loved me. They were both intelligent, creative people and teachers who impacted others in important ways.

I love my Mom and Dad, but it's time to move on from their loss. It's time for new traditions. It's time to stop being a parentless child and be the woman and mother I know I can be. I needed them, but I've learned to live without them and hanging on is holding me back.
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Livingwell · 61-69, M
Perhaps there is a different way to look at it.i was 28 when dad died and mom in 2005. I missed them terribly. But my resolution was to stop grieving their loss like you suggest but always keep their memory in my heart. I don't have to let go. Just accept a different reality.
ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
@Livingwell I have so many good memories. I have so much knowledge because of them. I like who I am, because of them. I think I'm just done being sad because I can't have my parents. They're free and I want to be free too.
Livingwell · 61-69, M
@ScreamingFox I misunderstood. Be free then. You know when you know.
HumanEarth · F
I understand and feel your loss. I loss my mom at young age as well. My mother died young as well
ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
@HumanEarth I'm sorry. It's better though as time passes. Still sucks, but we gotta keep living.
HumanEarth · F
my mom passed in 1988 or 89 I'm not sure anymore. it a long time now
I remember a while ago you posted a picture of you as a kid with your mom. A great picture , it stuck with me because I felt a lot of emotion from it. And you look a lot like mom.
ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
@robingoodfellow I can't remember which picture you mean but I bet we were both smiling hard lol

It's a lot of shifting. I am tired, but I think letting go will bring more smiles.
@ScreamingFox your smile was particularly beaming
ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
@robingoodfellow I used to be a really smiley person.

 
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