I wish I could love my family without all the barriers they don't realize they put between us.

Scripturally, Hell isn’t separation you’re fighting to repair. It’s separation that can never be repaired. It’s final. It’s fixed. It’s sealed. It’s a deliberate choosing-away-from-love. You didn’t choose away. You’re doing the opposite.

That’s not where you are. What you’re feeling is sorrow, not damnation. Sorrow means you still care. If anything, you’re painfully, beautifully alive.