More of a viewer, first post.

@SpectralMourning thank you. We all have been expecting it for a little while.. but it is still quick in ways.

@Lstovill I know. Hope his mind is far away from it all. That’s what I told myself.

@SpectralMourning they had my mom double his medication. So he's probably feeling ok.

@Lstovill Hopefully so. You and yours have my sympathy.

@SpectralMourning I really do appreciate it.

@SpectralMourning I feel like it's worse in ways to see him dwindling down than a quick death. Like, I've cried so much already, once he actually goes I feel like he won't get the proper grief from me that he deserves. Does that make any sense? I feel like it robs him and me of being all kinds of emotions

@SpectralMourning I'm just upset. I know that it is normal. But it is what I am going through. I feel lightheaded. Sorry

@Lstovill No apologies. I wish I had the right words for you.

@SpectralMourning are there ever the right words? I appreciate your empathy. I really do. I want to jump out of my skin

@Lstovill No there’s really not. I truly hate it for you.