Sorry me sorry guy

I have been a failure as an older brother, a failure son to my parents, grandson, I was "too cool" to hang with my highschool friends and left the state when I was 18 and forgot about everyone. I stole my family's car multiple times throughout my life and didn't return for months, I haven't been social with anyone in my family and I am miserable by myself all the time and now I'm paralyzed so they can treat me as a charity case and take care of me, that's all. That's one side