There are people here I show more affection to than my own family.

Last night my mom tried to talk to me and sounded like she was going to cry because I've been distant. I was mean to her.

I just know that whatever I share with her, she will share with dad, and dad will find a reason to get upset. And I don't have the interpersonal skills to handle that properly and just let them both know that I love them so much.

So I just shut down and get cold.

It's not right of her to talk behind my back but she just doesn't understand. She is only human. I wish I just had the ability to please both mom and dad.

And yes I realize when I talk like this I sound like a child. I basically am.