I hate being the youngest sibling

Everytime someone says "you're the youngest?Must be nice" I think about committing murder.No,it's not so nice, especially when all your siblings are already adults.I didn't even reach a double digit number when they all moved out

I do spend a lot of time with my siblings,I spend every summer break in their houses,they visit a lot.Sometimes it's just weird cause we don't have anything to talk about,we like the same movies but different characters,we like the same bands but we prefer different songs.All those things are normal cause preferences and all but it's not even about preferences anymore.

It also hurts so much when they are having the "remember when" talks and I just sit there awkwardly, cause I do not remember,I wasn't even born then.

And to make it worse,my parents were very different back then,they were struggling financially, extremely toxic(even though they still can be), emotionally absent dad,mom who hates her kids.Somtimes we are just talking and my siblings have to bring up how I have better and how spoiled I am.I do have better,I'm grateful and you blaming me for your bad childhood won't change anything