I miss Beeing a kid but I never really was

I was in foster care since I can remember
Some family was nice some just cold and only took care of kids for government money

Most of the time, I didn’t feel loved. No hugs. No kind words. No one asked how are you or ellme things would be okay. I felt alone, like I didn’t matter.
Some people were mean. I got hit when I made mistakes or cried. I was scared Al lot with some family so I was quiete

Now that I’m older and with good people I heal. I want to learn how to feel love and give love, even if I didn’t get it back then. I know I deserved better — and I still do.