My Aunt and my Attraction

I have been sexually attracted to my Aunt since I was 9 years old. I am currently 52 years old and still feel just as sexual towards her as I did then. I masturbate to the thought of here often and would consider her to be my "Top Sexual Desire". Although I have fantasozed about other family members they have kind of died off in my sexual desires (gladly). My Aunt is in her 70's and I can't understand what it is that hold my attraction to her. I would love to live with her, sleep in bed together like we are married, fantasize taking her out on dates, and having the kinkiest sex! I would have loved her to take me at a young age and let her have her way with me!

Does anyone else feel this way about any family members? I wish i didn't feel this way, but I can't help it.