I still have both parents. It's terrifying to think of losing them, even though Im not that close with them.

My bio father passed away last night 13 hours ago…. I never really imagined or thought about losing parents because I have a lot wrong medically so my parents and family were told to prepare for the worse which would have been me passing away after birth. I don’t know if I’m handling the grieving process well. I’ve only cried a little bit. Kind of feel empty inside but I’m not expressing my true feelings. Instead I’m bottling it up