Mother wounds..

Everybody thinks she deserves to be treated like a queen when she has been emotionally neglecting me, keep ruining my esteem keep asking for everyone's sympathy. She even lie to everyone about the things she made for me but did not. Believe it or not she is taking the credit of what others do. She feels better I end up looking bad. It has been the same I don't mind being hated by everyone I am a product she made. I felt this way because she intentionally made me feel. I grow up struggling to show gratitude but still no changes. I feel like I've been fooled all over again. My mind says one day her life will be taken away. What's her role when she is damaging.. continuously sabotaging.. always thought of being entitled. I have relied to myself when facing problems she has never been my confidant. Growing up without emotional safety. A dragger. Choose her and feels like your head is being cut. My siblings said that life is short. I said her name can live. Oh yes forgive me she can retire anytime.