My broken heart

Day 23 without my sweet baby boy. I tried getting out of the house today and I went to my favorite store and saw all the Christmas decorations and it hit me that you'll never be home for Christmas again. I left out of the store and cried my heart out. I gotta go to Missouri next week and pack his apartment up and I have anxiety thinking about it. I pray and ask God all day long to strengthen me. I wish no parent would ever have to experience this. 💔💔💔