something ive kept in for a while..

hello. i would say my real name but you never know. so iguess my name is.. hannah. im 21 now but when i was 6, i was going to church with my family. and it was such a nice sunny day i was supposed to be reading a chpater in the bible for everyone in church. As i crossed the street to get in my myms car, i noticed a big fat police van but i didnt think anything of it. not untilall my siblings got in the car and my dad. the police officer came up to my mum telling her to roll down the window. my silly 6 yr old self thought it was something funny. well it wasnt and the police officer asked if my dad lived there. then he asked him to step out and i saw the cuffs. my mum cried we all cried and so we just waited in the car. then the police officer drove away with out dad in the back? my mym said we were not going to church anymore. it hit me hard.. i realised my dad wasnt coming back hut i had no idea why! a few years later with him missjng my birthdays (i was 11) i was curious to know what had happened. i searched up his name [hannahs dad]. tears rolling down my eyes... rape??? i could barely breathe when I saw it and sentenced to over 10 years. but thats when i showed my mum. when my dad called he said its all gonna be ok. but how could it be? when i read the story on google. it was sickening and disturbing.. my eyes were puffy even thoguh i still love my dad. he said he was framed because of our race and that he asked my uncle (his friend) to help him in court but he didnt bother showing up. that's how he lost . Im not sure if i should believe it or not but man Its heart breaking. I think about it once in a while how if it is true then I just break down he missed alot of my childhood. 2 girls, 1 girl, there were so many rumors. i checked on twitter facebook , the sun, they had comments on and it was all nasty things , death threats? they all hated him. and the girl used the money she got from my dad to go to ibiza. i should feel happy for the girl but its my dad and I miss him so much . all the fathers days i had to use an excuse saying he went to some eurpoean country and he is self employed. my mum sleeps in a double bed without my dad and she basically raised us? and then she just gets to go to ibiza. not that i hate her but over 10 years and he is still in there I miss him so much but i dont know who to trust