Deeply conflicted about where I want to live.
I really, really want to get a fully remote job, sell my car, and live in an area that's at least decently walkable so I can save a shit ton of money. I also really loved the social activities my last complex hosted and want them back. Problem is, my old complex was not in a walkable area and also was quite expensive. I'm also trying to find a place with a low crime rate and next to a grocery store. If you think that list is too ridiculously specific for me to have any hope of getting it, you're right, buuuuut against all odds, I've actually found a place that fits that description, save for the social activities. Problem is, it's a city that my family lives just outside of.
The main issue is my brother. He never respects me or my time. He constantly wants to hang out and he badgers and guilts me about it. I know people will be mad at me for saying this, but wow I do not want to be within driving range of him. he has this super annoying personality where he thinks it's enlightened or something to constantly take jabs at everyone and everything around him, he's super nosey, and he's always demanding that I follow social norms and act normal. I feel like I can't be myself around him at all. It probably sounds petty, but he's RELENTLESS about it, like you have no idea, and man... I barely have the energy for life as it is. I can't afford to waste energy on him when I should be actually getting my life off the ground. I'm 24 years old and I barely even have any friends as it is. I've spent like a decade feeling exhausted all the time from constantly having to appease him and other people and I just don't want to do it anymore.
It also doesn't help that that city is full of people who have social connections with my parents, and I know they're going to talk. Love my mom and dad to death, but I don't want to have to live within my parents' narrow little view of the world. Plus, i don't really want to feel too connected to my past because I kinda hate the person I used to be.
The main issue is my brother. He never respects me or my time. He constantly wants to hang out and he badgers and guilts me about it. I know people will be mad at me for saying this, but wow I do not want to be within driving range of him. he has this super annoying personality where he thinks it's enlightened or something to constantly take jabs at everyone and everything around him, he's super nosey, and he's always demanding that I follow social norms and act normal. I feel like I can't be myself around him at all. It probably sounds petty, but he's RELENTLESS about it, like you have no idea, and man... I barely have the energy for life as it is. I can't afford to waste energy on him when I should be actually getting my life off the ground. I'm 24 years old and I barely even have any friends as it is. I've spent like a decade feeling exhausted all the time from constantly having to appease him and other people and I just don't want to do it anymore.
It also doesn't help that that city is full of people who have social connections with my parents, and I know they're going to talk. Love my mom and dad to death, but I don't want to have to live within my parents' narrow little view of the world. Plus, i don't really want to feel too connected to my past because I kinda hate the person I used to be.
