Sorry it's a long one. No negativity please.
Not been here in a while.
However nothing has changed regarding my parents.
I'm such a mixed bag of emotions in the build up to seeing them. Then a complete mess after doing so.
Feeling very alone right now.
I was made to feel unwanted/an inconvenience whilst growing up.
They still make me feel that way. I hadn't seen them since before Christmas.
Yesterday they came over. We chatted. They didn't engage with my children other than to ask how they were. Since my relationship breakdown they've asked after me once.
I'm in the middle of a move, no support offered.
They talked about my brother and is children. Boy is so clever, girl is so cute.
Interrupted me talking about my children to carry on talking about my brothers. Not my brother's fault but he's always been the favourite. Now there's evident favouritism with grandchildren to.
My parents were not in the country when I had my two youngest, I needed the support back then to. Came home from hospital with my daughter, my parents came round then went back to Austria that very same day. We were facing the unknown with my baby girl.
They left saying we'll see you at Easter.
Yet they'll be down, no doubt to see my brother a couple times between now and then, like they have between Christmas and now to see him. Me and my siblings live in the same town btw.
They'll never change.
I can never tell them how they make me feel. My siblings dismiss my feelings really.
If I could I would cut ties.
I can't live my adult life feeling as though I'm an inconvenience. Shouldn't have to.
However nothing has changed regarding my parents.
I'm such a mixed bag of emotions in the build up to seeing them. Then a complete mess after doing so.
Feeling very alone right now.
I was made to feel unwanted/an inconvenience whilst growing up.
They still make me feel that way. I hadn't seen them since before Christmas.
Yesterday they came over. We chatted. They didn't engage with my children other than to ask how they were. Since my relationship breakdown they've asked after me once.
I'm in the middle of a move, no support offered.
They talked about my brother and is children. Boy is so clever, girl is so cute.
Interrupted me talking about my children to carry on talking about my brothers. Not my brother's fault but he's always been the favourite. Now there's evident favouritism with grandchildren to.
My parents were not in the country when I had my two youngest, I needed the support back then to. Came home from hospital with my daughter, my parents came round then went back to Austria that very same day. We were facing the unknown with my baby girl.
They left saying we'll see you at Easter.
Yet they'll be down, no doubt to see my brother a couple times between now and then, like they have between Christmas and now to see him. Me and my siblings live in the same town btw.
They'll never change.
I can never tell them how they make me feel. My siblings dismiss my feelings really.
If I could I would cut ties.
I can't live my adult life feeling as though I'm an inconvenience. Shouldn't have to.
41-45, F
