My dysfunctional family, as always
My sister is so freaking annoying!!! She keeps sending me religious shit using my mother. Because she sends religious crap related to her. She knows very well I am not religious, in fact, I wouldn't be surprised if she knows I don't believe..
Now I have responded positively to such crap she sent when our mother passed away because we've been through a lot, so i was being supportive, and because her messages didn't seem to have such ulterior motives, we were both just too sad.. A few months later, we still are, but it is not the same.
I am not prepared to acknowledge any of the crap she sends, I don't even read them. The thing is, she sent me three messages with such crap since I've been away (the first one being on the day I travelled) which is not her norm, there have been weeks when we didn't exchange any messages, so why this sudden interest. She probably knows that I am away from my other brother who knows, and thinks she is being all smart about it, and I hate it when people have hidden motives behind their interactions with me.
It is really what gets on my nerves the most. When people play with me thinking they are so intelligent when in fact they are soooo dumb. There will come a time when I will tell her to stop sending me any of this stupid crap because i don't believe in it. I don't think it is the time just yet, and for now I have ignored three messages of hers. Let's see if she will get the hint, or will continue to make a fool of herself.
The thing with my family is that it is never genuine interest. And then I wonder why I don't trust them. I was in a state thinking maybe I should mend things with them, after my mother passed away, but all she is doing is making me angry. It is like they are not interested in you, just interested in having live certain way, and they just keep their nose in your life anyway they could to prevent you. She knows she doesn't have much power on me, nobody does, including my mother back then, which her only power was that she had a hold on my heart, and that made me stuck unable to do much .. But my sister, she resorts to these silly ways and can't talk directly, she knows if she does, it will result in a huge fight.
Definitely my threshold for tolerating any shit from her side is waaaay lower than the threshold I had for my mother and I just wish I could tell her to take all that crap somewhere else because I feel so angry. I have no patience for this shit and I have been through a lot with my mother during her lifetime because of my beliefs.. I won't go through the same with anyone else, I do not know when will they ever learn to treat people around them as adults, accept their choices and move on.
Now I have responded positively to such crap she sent when our mother passed away because we've been through a lot, so i was being supportive, and because her messages didn't seem to have such ulterior motives, we were both just too sad.. A few months later, we still are, but it is not the same.
I am not prepared to acknowledge any of the crap she sends, I don't even read them. The thing is, she sent me three messages with such crap since I've been away (the first one being on the day I travelled) which is not her norm, there have been weeks when we didn't exchange any messages, so why this sudden interest. She probably knows that I am away from my other brother who knows, and thinks she is being all smart about it, and I hate it when people have hidden motives behind their interactions with me.
It is really what gets on my nerves the most. When people play with me thinking they are so intelligent when in fact they are soooo dumb. There will come a time when I will tell her to stop sending me any of this stupid crap because i don't believe in it. I don't think it is the time just yet, and for now I have ignored three messages of hers. Let's see if she will get the hint, or will continue to make a fool of herself.
The thing with my family is that it is never genuine interest. And then I wonder why I don't trust them. I was in a state thinking maybe I should mend things with them, after my mother passed away, but all she is doing is making me angry. It is like they are not interested in you, just interested in having live certain way, and they just keep their nose in your life anyway they could to prevent you. She knows she doesn't have much power on me, nobody does, including my mother back then, which her only power was that she had a hold on my heart, and that made me stuck unable to do much .. But my sister, she resorts to these silly ways and can't talk directly, she knows if she does, it will result in a huge fight.
Definitely my threshold for tolerating any shit from her side is waaaay lower than the threshold I had for my mother and I just wish I could tell her to take all that crap somewhere else because I feel so angry. I have no patience for this shit and I have been through a lot with my mother during her lifetime because of my beliefs.. I won't go through the same with anyone else, I do not know when will they ever learn to treat people around them as adults, accept their choices and move on.
31-35, F
