My eldest sister comes up to....
me and says, why are you so meann to me? Is it because you hate fat people? What did i do to you for all these years? I miss the nice you 😟🤣. I am like no is because everytime it feels like you want to aggirare me..make me crack. And i see you smirking about it...but i left it at that. I did not mention the fact that i remember it was her and my mother who munipulated me, made me believe he is the one. When things went south they would blame me. So i thought i had to satisfy them by ignoring my intuition and hurting. All of em taking advantage of my weak heart in ehich all wa__ needed was support but didn't get shit but shit. I didn't tell her cause i didn't want her to say, oh, you still haven't moved on from him. He's married now. I can give two shits about him. Most of the pain came from my fam tbfh. Plus, i realize that the past is over now and i need to move on and stop letting it dominate my presant and future. That is what is preventing me from stepping up my game and being the best version i could be. I have not moved on but i am trying. It started with me not telling her the real reason i am like that now. I'm trying. I have huge ass migranes now everytime i think of it. My heart feels heavy. When i cry now it burns. But i am fine now thank you. Lets leave it at that. Fine 😑
31-35, F
