Living alone at 21
I swear all I do these days is clean up, do the dishes X5 a day, clean my counters like X10 and then I deep clean every Sunday I don't even live with anybody else, can't imagine having a family, cleaning up after bratz, and an adult baby too, (husband) how do women do this?
I'm so bored, I can't afford to go out anywhere, because I live in the middle of nowhere and don't drive, so I have to taxi everywhere, so many days I don't say a word, I'm autistic, so I genuinely prefer to be alone anyways, but I don't have a support system, there's no one to call if I feel like it, no one but my partner, who lives 100 miles and works too, my family is useless, when I was homeless they turned their backs on me, everyone, I will never forget the day, I was thrown to the wolves, on such a cold evening. I called my sister, and begged her to help me, as I was being abused by some man who let me stay with him, I travelled to her by bus, she had no room in her house, so I slept on the floor, I stayed for 2 nights, and every minute, she reminded me how much of a burden I was, she did help me, my government aid had to, but I will forget how horrible my family was to me, I begged my mother just to sleep on her sofa, she turned her back on me, like trash you discard in bin, that hurt.
I've never had a job before, every job I've applied to, I never make the cut, just recently I got one, but it's too far, seriously too far.
So now I don't know what to do, I want to support myself without the government, but I get turned down every job.
Not to mention I'm lonely, even the neighbors here, talk amongst themselves, but they are alot older, and not my kind of folks, I'd rather die of loneliness, than have "friends" who use me, so I guess it is just me, myself, and my partner against the world.
I'm so bored, I can't afford to go out anywhere, because I live in the middle of nowhere and don't drive, so I have to taxi everywhere, so many days I don't say a word, I'm autistic, so I genuinely prefer to be alone anyways, but I don't have a support system, there's no one to call if I feel like it, no one but my partner, who lives 100 miles and works too, my family is useless, when I was homeless they turned their backs on me, everyone, I will never forget the day, I was thrown to the wolves, on such a cold evening. I called my sister, and begged her to help me, as I was being abused by some man who let me stay with him, I travelled to her by bus, she had no room in her house, so I slept on the floor, I stayed for 2 nights, and every minute, she reminded me how much of a burden I was, she did help me, my government aid had to, but I will forget how horrible my family was to me, I begged my mother just to sleep on her sofa, she turned her back on me, like trash you discard in bin, that hurt.
I've never had a job before, every job I've applied to, I never make the cut, just recently I got one, but it's too far, seriously too far.
So now I don't know what to do, I want to support myself without the government, but I get turned down every job.
Not to mention I'm lonely, even the neighbors here, talk amongst themselves, but they are alot older, and not my kind of folks, I'd rather die of loneliness, than have "friends" who use me, so I guess it is just me, myself, and my partner against the world.
22-25, F
