I just want them to know that I love them.

My mom loved us so much that she home schooled all 8 of us throughout childhood. J remember her taking all of us on a field trip, once. How much fun it was. How happy everyone was.

Now I have to say that she abused me and shit like that. And she told me herself that she often thinks, "What have I done?" when her kids say stuff like that. I feel so bad for her.
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I just want to love my parents and say I love then without any caveats. I want to say they did a great job. But they... didn't. 😭 I'm sorry, Mom & Dad.