You sound self aware and strong; however; be careful not to get lost laying complete blame on the person who hurt you, because it’s a two way street, my partner always says… I’ve learned that we spend a lot of time dwelling on the person who hurt us, rather than seeing the big picture after reflecting and realizing that defensiveness and inability to accept personal responsibility for allowing someone to continue to hurt you is an ugly character trait. It’s easier to focus blame and hurt and anger on someone else, but try holding yourself accountable too. It will make you a better person. I am sorry you are going through a tough time. I am too. It’s not the end of the line. This too shall pass