To be shameless means to be able to take a step...one step, two step, three steps. On to a destined path with no way out in sight.
But you keep at it anyway.
Keep at it even while wavering, until you end up going, having abandoned inhibitions. Not without doubts, but just because you have trust. To yourself. To whoever's holding your hand. To the God who doesn't let go. To a future version of you and to the people who'd be standing next to you.
I think shamelessness can be a good thing if you let it, especially for someone who wants to change for the better.
Why judge yourself for a past version you regret?
Learn from it. Move on and focus on the present and the future you're trying to build.
Sometimes we end up being too hard on ourselves. It gets us stuck and unable to move forward. The doubts build up, ending up like a hard wall so high, it becomes impossible to climb. And yet the one who built it and placed it right in front of you is you yourself.
But now, as I ponder about how to present myself to society and even to people I stopped holding on a high regard...I think I'll give myself something good to stop my doubts.
To present myself and make judgments based on what I can and cannot tolerate at this point in time while I work to become the version of me I feel I can be proud to become.
People's judgements and my own frustrations of my past self be damned. Not because I had no care for that version of me. If anything, I am so grateful to her.
Because she made the choices and helped me reach where I am.
Just like a toddler who had to crawl to learn how to walk.
Now like an adult who has to make mistakes to learn how to be decent, more and more resilient, more and more capable, more and more powerful and courageous...only to want to learn how to be kind and compassionate again.
Funny how the world tries to break us.
But hang in there little fellow.
Cause you can rise up. You will.
And so will I. :)
Keep at it even while wavering, until you end up going, having abandoned inhibitions. Not without doubts, but just because you have trust. To yourself. To whoever's holding your hand. To the God who doesn't let go. To a future version of you and to the people who'd be standing next to you.
I think shamelessness can be a good thing if you let it, especially for someone who wants to change for the better.
Why judge yourself for a past version you regret?
Learn from it. Move on and focus on the present and the future you're trying to build.
Sometimes we end up being too hard on ourselves. It gets us stuck and unable to move forward. The doubts build up, ending up like a hard wall so high, it becomes impossible to climb. And yet the one who built it and placed it right in front of you is you yourself.
But now, as I ponder about how to present myself to society and even to people I stopped holding on a high regard...I think I'll give myself something good to stop my doubts.
To present myself and make judgments based on what I can and cannot tolerate at this point in time while I work to become the version of me I feel I can be proud to become.
People's judgements and my own frustrations of my past self be damned. Not because I had no care for that version of me. If anything, I am so grateful to her.
Because she made the choices and helped me reach where I am.
Just like a toddler who had to crawl to learn how to walk.
Now like an adult who has to make mistakes to learn how to be decent, more and more resilient, more and more capable, more and more powerful and courageous...only to want to learn how to be kind and compassionate again.
Funny how the world tries to break us.
But hang in there little fellow.
Cause you can rise up. You will.
And so will I. :)
