I am truly sorry
I really and truly hurt her, I really feel utterly and completely ashamed and disgusted for having done the things I did to her. The truth is, she's truly an amazing person and I fed off of that. She is truly one of the most selfless person I've ever met in my entire life. I wish I wasn't so screwed up in the head and I wish I could've left everything behind me after my ex and not bring forth any of my conniving and dishonorable ways. The truth is I was obsessed with her, she was like a drug, the most potent drug out there. The only thing she ever did was try to protect my feelings and be honest with me about not being able to give me that relationship I sought. I couldn't handle the rejection and I created all these messed up things just to ensure she hurt. I feel so ridiculously low and stupid for telling all that to her sister, our personal affairs. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for doing that.
I wish I could stand in front her or even send her a message coming clean and apologizing for it all. I messed up after she really was starting to come around after finding out about that other lie. I need to truly seek professional help to get through stuff like this because it is truly sad to be out here hurting good-hearted, innocent folks like her.
If I could talk to you rn, I'd tell you how much I truly love you and I have no idea why I lied and manipulated you in this manner all because you never wanted to be with me. I would tell you that you are an amazing person in every single way imaginable and that I wish I could take back all the things I ever did or say to hurt you. I would tell you how incredibly kind and loving you are and how people takes advantage of your generosity. I have been suffering since you pull the plug on us and that's the real reason I've been acting like this. I can't imagine what you might be going through rn and I hope you heal someday.
I wish I could stand in front her or even send her a message coming clean and apologizing for it all. I messed up after she really was starting to come around after finding out about that other lie. I need to truly seek professional help to get through stuff like this because it is truly sad to be out here hurting good-hearted, innocent folks like her.
If I could talk to you rn, I'd tell you how much I truly love you and I have no idea why I lied and manipulated you in this manner all because you never wanted to be with me. I would tell you that you are an amazing person in every single way imaginable and that I wish I could take back all the things I ever did or say to hurt you. I would tell you how incredibly kind and loving you are and how people takes advantage of your generosity. I have been suffering since you pull the plug on us and that's the real reason I've been acting like this. I can't imagine what you might be going through rn and I hope you heal someday.
