What to do what to do next

Red wine? Some Hotel California? Some incense, a nice good cigarette and maybe some guitar noodling maybe I'll come up with another song. Sometimes I hate being happy alone and wish I had a partner. I wish thing could be simple in having a partner. 2 people just enjoying each other's company and the moments without overthinking or hangups. I never ended up with someone like that. It was always excessive drama and moodiness. At least I am relaxed and make myself happy. I guess that's what counts. I do miss affection though and having someone to watch movies with etc. I look pissed off is what others say, but I'm not. That's just my face and how it appears. I can't help it. But inside I'm happy and vibrant.