I have those times also and even more often now . It seems I’ve lived my life on the outside in many ways . I had friends in school but didn’t really go out with groups like everyone else did. It was more if they needed some help doing something I was the one they would come to, everyone else was to busy or something. When I started working I got along great with my workers at work but after work we usually went different ways.
Most of the time I’m happy being me and being by myself without being the one someone relies on all the time but having a few friends that wants to do things I like doing would be good also.
I probably can’t help but I would say be friendly, offer to help when you can , and be nice to people maybe you can find some friends to help you .
If you want to chat I’m here fairly often and would like to hear from you.