Another year

Turning 30 sucks. They say it's wisdom gained when all I feel is empty, lost and lonely.

It's just a reminder of how I screwed up and how I could've made it better when I had the chance. Sadly it's time lost now.

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

I turned 28 recently and asked myself at what point I screwed up exactly and I couldn't really tell. I believe there are objective reasons why you couldn't make it better when you had the chance.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@CrazyMusicLover I turned 30 today and when I look back all I see is a series of screw ups.

I had so much opportunities for a better life yet I chose to throw them away for a narcissist. Ironically I'm left with just memories of how I screwed up and the past feels like an acid trip while my future seems bleak. It's not really a nice place to be in.

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

@Beatbox34 I wish you happy birthday anyway. Please, don't be so hard on yourself.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@CrazyMusicLover Thank you so much. I will try but I'm in a very dark place.