living alone for a long time does funny things to you
like at times, at night time, when it's time for bed, i get this immense lonely feeling of isolation, like going to my dark bedroom is akin to going to my dark silent isolated grave of death? to put it simply the feeling of 'aloneness' and isolation is so profound, it's like a nightmare.
i have lived alone for 20 years now, my only support system is my elderly mother & father too, but mainly my mother who i'm so devoted to, but my mum lives very far away now and i'm here in this apartment/ flat by myself.......i lost touch with the friends i had, long ago, and now as a middle aged adult i feel completely 'cut off' from society and people.
when i go to my bedroom at night and turn the light out, it's like the black hole of Calcutta and i feel acutely alone and isolated, sometimes i have bad dreams and awaken in the middle of the night feeling shaken.
i have lived alone for 20 years now, my only support system is my elderly mother & father too, but mainly my mother who i'm so devoted to, but my mum lives very far away now and i'm here in this apartment/ flat by myself.......i lost touch with the friends i had, long ago, and now as a middle aged adult i feel completely 'cut off' from society and people.
when i go to my bedroom at night and turn the light out, it's like the black hole of Calcutta and i feel acutely alone and isolated, sometimes i have bad dreams and awaken in the middle of the night feeling shaken.
46-50, M
