I Believe Life Is a Life Long Lesson

And now I am learning to be sick. I am exhausted again, like I was in high school. My mind operates at 10% and I can barely stay awake let alone solve the complex problems in front of me. But when the person I've trained works with the guy I worked with, and they 'go it alone ' and it sounds logical and measured... well, I feel alive in those moments. Grateful for the opportunity to teach them, knowing that they learned and it helped them along their way. But the the moment passes, and I am confronted with yet another moron-ism from the program I'm working to commission, and bam. It's gluten or over consumption of meat and animal products since I stopped veganism. But I'm fairly sure it's gluten. I'm so tired it's not even 6pm and I slept 9.5hrs straight last night. Sick and tired of being sick and tired, but that is what I must learn to be - and learn to be it well. I have great teachers. My Grandad was sick and tired the whole time and stuck in his top floor flat, but he made kites and watched us fly them once a year when we went to see him. My best friend in Czech Republic suffered with Ulcerative Colitis most of his life but learnt to design user interfaces while he worked with me and giants like O2 and Avast poached him. But most of all he was happy with everything he had. And he still is. My Uncle left this world from motor neurone disease, but as long as he could speak he would tell us he loved us with all his heart so that when he couldn't speak anymore we still heard his voice in our hearts. So now the buck is handed to me. Feels like a tough gig to be honest but writing it here shows me I gotta give it a shot.