I Find This Disturbing

When I was DDing I was told a very disturbing story last night. It was one that involved my grandpa tongue kissing some woman's friend who was telling the story. She said after she saw that she wouldn't shake his hand because that's how he drew her friend in for the long kiss goodbye.
I had to tell somebody and have no one around who'd appreciate how that traumatized me. All the family that was there thought it was funny.
All these hurtful events kept happening yesterday.

From that gross story to mum offering grandpas ashes to people who don't even keel in touch.
To cousins kissing my sisters ass while she's not even present and I'm driving everyone's drunk asses around.
To my auntie acting like she's had fifty in memory walks for her son when there's only been one year and she's drunk all the time I think she's been having it on the wrong day. I could be wrong though. I was called after the search was already on.
It's so frustrating being in this family. I wonder what it would be like to be in one where people stay in touch and have dinners together and go camping. The family we used to have. I was barely old enough to remember it all.
It's all just so sad and I can't sit and talk with someone about all my feelings so here I go I guess.... Lol