I Struggling With Depression Poem

DAYS OF ENDLESS STRUGGLE> >>>MORE HOPEFUL PILLS TODAY ,,,, TRYING TO APPEAR (NORMAL ) IN SOME SORT OF WAY,,,,,, IT SEEMS THAT THE STRUGGLE IS ALWAYS HERE WITH ME >>>>>>>>>>> AND I WOULDN'T BE THERE NOW >> IF GUILT WOULD LEAVE ME BE >>>>>> I KNOW THERE'S BEEN MANY WHO'VE HAD IT WORSE THAN I >>> BUT THAT DOESN'T ALWAYS MEAN THAT I WOULD'NT SAY GOOD BYE >>>>> PEOPLE SAY I HAVE A LOT GOING FOR ME >>>> I'M SORRY; BUT I JUST CANT SEE ... I CAN'T SEE BECAUSE MY MOST ENEMY IS NOT MY LIFE .......... BUT INSIDE OF ME !!!!! ALWAYS ON A ROLLER COASTER, NOTING MUCH CONSISTENCY >>> I'M NOTING IF I AM NOT UP OR DOWN >>> I AM NOTING IF JUST ( ME ) ....................... VERY LITTLE ENERGY &lt;&lt;&lt;< WANTING TO STAY IN BED >>>>>>> WISHING TO BE ENTHUSIASTIC < INSTEAD OF FEELING LIKE I AM MADE OF LEAD ......... WANTING TO BE EXCITED WANTED TO CARE FOR MORE >>>>>>>BUT WHEN NOTING MAKE SENSE IT'S HARD TO FOCUS ON THE POOR >>>>>>>>>>>>CLUTTERED MIND , CLUTTERED THINKING >>> IS HARD TO KEEP IN TOUCH >>>>> WITH WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND ME ..............AND NOT TO WORRY TOO MUCH &lt;< I FEEL THAT EVERY BODY IS IS BETTER THEN ME>>> AND THAT I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT &lt;< THIS IS HOW I'VE FELT MY WHOLE DANG LIFE .....>> I DIDN'T JUST START LAST NIGHT.. NO CONFIDENCE < NO SELF _ ESTEEM ... EVERYBODY ELSE IS RIGHT >>> TO SPEAK MY MIND IS TO BE A FOOL ,,,,,,,,,,,, SO I JUST TRY TO ( SIT TIGHT ) ....................... ANY ONE OF THESE PROBLEMS &lt;&lt;< WOULD BE A VERY VICE >>>>>>>>>>>BUT WHEN YOU HAVE THEM ALL ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, LIVING SEEMS LIKE A ROLL OF THE DICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!