I On The Past

When I was a kid, I used to talk with everyone normally. Laughing, smiling, and playing but eventually change. My teachers awarded me at school and some of my classmates got jealous. They then hated me and made a dirt out of me making others to misunderstood. Even I am innocent they isolated, rejected and bullied me. Kids before are scary right! Even until now. Even in high school the bullying never stopped for some of my classmates before are in my section. I snap and tried to lock myself in my room. My parents encouraged me but it didn’t work. I then hated this world, this life, the one who created it and those who make me feel this way. The things around me looked like dyed in black and fall of misery. I live my life in a dark room with my pc and a laptop. Playing games, reading manga, and watching anime is my world then. Anime keeps me hanging on, letting me know what it feels like to be alive and breathing, but I still got the feeling of emptiness. The loneliness didn’t fade and sadness is still over flowing. That’s my life before. But even until now I didn’t actually truly move on. The scars and trauma are still here.