I Would Love To Wirte
I almost didn’t write anything today. I got lazy, then I realised, that that’s what has been holding me back. Stunting my movements and growth, since past few years. So I decided to pen down few words, just for the heck of it. Its 5 am and I need to sleep, and I really don’t have anything to write on. So I will just ramble about one random thought that crossed my mind. I was going to not write, then I made myself open my laptop and start this, this is what I do, procrastinate, and that has been a real bummer lately. I wasn’t always like this though, its about time I get back to being me.
There is one very good quote in Hindi, which roughly translates to: you can change you habits, you can’t your nature. It sounds lot better in Hindi, it is the most common insult thrown when somebody does something wrong for more than once. I have always liked this quote. Habit is what you do, and do it daily. Nature is what you are, inherently. Habits after all can be changed. I have woken up in morning my whole life, its human nature to work in day and sleep at night. And I have been working night shift last three years, I have made this a habit. To sleep in day and work in night. Habit has taken over my nature. Though we can break a habit, it can definitely take over. And when it goes against your nature, you are in for hell.
I have made it a habit to procrastinate and became lazy. I wasn’t like this, I used to do ton of stuff when I was in college and still had time. I remember my best friend asking me if I had 30 hours in my day. College 8-5, some game after that, teaching kids later and used to come back home at 9. Still managed to do my assignments by myself, never copied. And now, all I do is work for 9 hours and sleep. I had another weekend pass by me and I did absolutely nothing. I dint even step out of my house for more than an hour. It makes me wonder, what am I doing.
I have always been organized, and efficient. Waking up at a certain time, doing stuff exactly at time, and it all worked out pretty well for me. Last few years have however thrown me out of balance. So the habit of being lazy is taking over my nature of being proactive, or in general, active. When I have one project to do in a day, at work, I take 3 hours to do it. I go about socializing, talking and doing stuff. When I have 3 projects, I do them in 1 hour. Specially, if I get them towards the end of day. It sounds silly, but I am at my efficient best when under pressure.
We know our capabilities and limitations. We know our nature and habits. Sometimes, some habits are hard to break. Like my laziness. But It’s essential we do it. So I am gonna do that from tomorrow. I am going to follow a fixed routine, like I used to back in college. I have too much time lately and no accomplishments, my brain gathering dust, and limbs getting creaky. I have heard if you do something for 40 days, it becomes a habit, so I am going to follow this routine for the next 40 days and see if it works. I have made it a habit to say a long prayer 11 times a day, to help me calm down and concentrate, it hasn’t been 40 days yet and its hasnt been miraculous, but I can feel a little change at times. It’s time to go back to my Nature and break this lazy habit too!
P.S: I first need to change my nature of hitting the snooze button on my alarm LOL.
There is one very good quote in Hindi, which roughly translates to: you can change you habits, you can’t your nature. It sounds lot better in Hindi, it is the most common insult thrown when somebody does something wrong for more than once. I have always liked this quote. Habit is what you do, and do it daily. Nature is what you are, inherently. Habits after all can be changed. I have woken up in morning my whole life, its human nature to work in day and sleep at night. And I have been working night shift last three years, I have made this a habit. To sleep in day and work in night. Habit has taken over my nature. Though we can break a habit, it can definitely take over. And when it goes against your nature, you are in for hell.
I have made it a habit to procrastinate and became lazy. I wasn’t like this, I used to do ton of stuff when I was in college and still had time. I remember my best friend asking me if I had 30 hours in my day. College 8-5, some game after that, teaching kids later and used to come back home at 9. Still managed to do my assignments by myself, never copied. And now, all I do is work for 9 hours and sleep. I had another weekend pass by me and I did absolutely nothing. I dint even step out of my house for more than an hour. It makes me wonder, what am I doing.
I have always been organized, and efficient. Waking up at a certain time, doing stuff exactly at time, and it all worked out pretty well for me. Last few years have however thrown me out of balance. So the habit of being lazy is taking over my nature of being proactive, or in general, active. When I have one project to do in a day, at work, I take 3 hours to do it. I go about socializing, talking and doing stuff. When I have 3 projects, I do them in 1 hour. Specially, if I get them towards the end of day. It sounds silly, but I am at my efficient best when under pressure.
We know our capabilities and limitations. We know our nature and habits. Sometimes, some habits are hard to break. Like my laziness. But It’s essential we do it. So I am gonna do that from tomorrow. I am going to follow a fixed routine, like I used to back in college. I have too much time lately and no accomplishments, my brain gathering dust, and limbs getting creaky. I have heard if you do something for 40 days, it becomes a habit, so I am going to follow this routine for the next 40 days and see if it works. I have made it a habit to say a long prayer 11 times a day, to help me calm down and concentrate, it hasn’t been 40 days yet and its hasnt been miraculous, but I can feel a little change at times. It’s time to go back to my Nature and break this lazy habit too!
P.S: I first need to change my nature of hitting the snooze button on my alarm LOL.
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