I Fall For Ideas
People fall in love with people, or things sometimes, I fall in love with ideas. I love the idea of somebody, love the IDEA of something, IDEA of a life. Ideas are abstract, they can race light, they are beautiful and malleable. I can mold my ideas, weave them to my liking, make miracles happen. Give me a situation and I have infinite ideas around it. Ideas, malleable and precious than gold!
Now the subjects of these ideas usually take a lot of time to take root in my mind. I don’t fall in love with an idea easily, it takes months of coercing. Once it takes root, it stays there, forever. Now, idea of a thing, for example, a pair of shoes, I liked, or a dress, I buy, I realize it dint match my idea. It isn’t good. I let it go.
People on the other hand, once they take root in my mind, I cant let go. I find it hard to even get that person out of my mind. Now imagine a person, taking time and making effort to place himself in my mind, and suddenly leaving. After which I realize everything spoken was a lie, every effort was means to an end. And it was all just time-pass for a person. And my mind, rejects the notion, it sticks to the idea, it wont see them in bad light, it wont understand. It wont let go. And this idea, is killing me, slowly but definitely. I have fallen for idea of things, and I have gotten out of it, I haven’t fallen for an idea of a person, I thought I am in love, but how can I be? With a stranger? I don’t even know if anything they said were true. But, I know two things, 1: they don’t care; 2: this is just idea of that person I am clinging to and cant let go.
Now, you can find flaws in a person, and move on, how do you move on from an idea??
Now the subjects of these ideas usually take a lot of time to take root in my mind. I don’t fall in love with an idea easily, it takes months of coercing. Once it takes root, it stays there, forever. Now, idea of a thing, for example, a pair of shoes, I liked, or a dress, I buy, I realize it dint match my idea. It isn’t good. I let it go.
People on the other hand, once they take root in my mind, I cant let go. I find it hard to even get that person out of my mind. Now imagine a person, taking time and making effort to place himself in my mind, and suddenly leaving. After which I realize everything spoken was a lie, every effort was means to an end. And it was all just time-pass for a person. And my mind, rejects the notion, it sticks to the idea, it wont see them in bad light, it wont understand. It wont let go. And this idea, is killing me, slowly but definitely. I have fallen for idea of things, and I have gotten out of it, I haven’t fallen for an idea of a person, I thought I am in love, but how can I be? With a stranger? I don’t even know if anything they said were true. But, I know two things, 1: they don’t care; 2: this is just idea of that person I am clinging to and cant let go.
Now, you can find flaws in a person, and move on, how do you move on from an idea??
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