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I Am Redhotcrazy Wearing Heart On Sleeve Hear Me

I am feeling empowered by my own will and strength of late...I'm finding it's okay being on my own. I don't "need" someone to come home to and eat dinner with, to sleep in a bed with me, to pester me about where I'm going and what I'm doing every second of the day...I'm okay with just being an individual.
Today was a fine day. I woke up, showered, went shopping with a friend who needed new clothes and wanted the company, came home took a nap, met up with another friend at a bookstore to discuss a trip we're taking together, came back home made myself dinner, relaxed for a while, then went to the gym, and home again.

I'm content with a day like this---Chatting in my friend's car about our lives, helping her pick out clothes and finding a nice blouse on the clearance rack for myself ($3.85 after tax!).....laptop on coffee table in café looking up stuff for a road trip with a friend, excitedly talking about the details....not going to go into details about what I "made" for dinner, because let's face it- I'm no cook....jamming to music on my ipod while working out on the elliptical...then jamming to more music on the drive back home.....

And today was even Valentine's Day. I didn't bl<x>ink twice---the first valentine's day in the last 8 years that I wasn't "attached", and I didn't sweat it....no tears for this girl. I smiled at the idea that maybe someday I'll have another "valentine" and for now, I'll just be my own valentine ;)
JacquesSade
I said it in another comment: "you go girl!"

I would wish this perspective on so many who are in the place you are right now. Just awesome.
RedHotCrazyPerson · 31-35, F
thank you, encouraging words are always welcomed and cherished. It has taken some effort to really own this perspective and take hold of it, but it has definitely helped my spirits.
JacquesSade
This is clearly a "work in progress" and I'm sure there are and will be moments of darkness, backsliding, all that... but you seem to have the basic framework figured out and haven't given up on what you want, just recognized a more reasonable pace!
hapsoul
So nice to see you have the inner strength to not care about having to have someone. There is a huge difference in having to have someone versus wanting to have someone.

 
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