I Need To Talk To You Right Now
I have a lot of stuff to say and apparently no one to say it to...
How can you say that nothing matters and there is no point to this? Everything matters to me. I never said it didn't matter, yeah I changed the status. But you don't realize how much it had hurt me when you said that not only were we NOT together but that you didn't even see me as a friend and didn't trust me....you don't realize how much that broke me and changing is wasn't easy either.... as soon as it changed.... I just fell apart.... I almost thought that you were really going to be gone forever... I was so scared. Last night was really hard too if you couldn't tell by all the crying... I don't want you gone and I still want to, still want to be with you and love you and be loved by you... I wanted to ask you so many times if I could get it changed back to the original status but I knew you were going to be so hurt and wouldn't let it get changed back. I doubt that you will ever read this and know all of my thoughts and feelings about this... I don't want you gone...I both need and want you in my life. You have been there everyday since we first started talking and you are my best friend and more. You are the first person that I think of when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep. I always think of you, even when you think that I don't care anymore or may not have any feelings for you, I do. I have never stopped caring and loving you. Four years, that is a long time. We have had our ups and downs and a lot, a lot of things both good and bad, but it was all worth it. Knowing that at the end of the day I still loved you and you maybe loved me back. I don't want you gone, ever out of my life. I am so sorry for the change, and as soon as it happened I wanted it changed back so much that it hurt. Ever since it happened I wanted it back, whether you would ever believe me or not, I am the only one I suppose would know... I am so sorry and whether you believe me or not. I love you and hope that we will be able to talk about this and explain what happened and how. Please don't leave....
How can you say that nothing matters and there is no point to this? Everything matters to me. I never said it didn't matter, yeah I changed the status. But you don't realize how much it had hurt me when you said that not only were we NOT together but that you didn't even see me as a friend and didn't trust me....you don't realize how much that broke me and changing is wasn't easy either.... as soon as it changed.... I just fell apart.... I almost thought that you were really going to be gone forever... I was so scared. Last night was really hard too if you couldn't tell by all the crying... I don't want you gone and I still want to, still want to be with you and love you and be loved by you... I wanted to ask you so many times if I could get it changed back to the original status but I knew you were going to be so hurt and wouldn't let it get changed back. I doubt that you will ever read this and know all of my thoughts and feelings about this... I don't want you gone...I both need and want you in my life. You have been there everyday since we first started talking and you are my best friend and more. You are the first person that I think of when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep. I always think of you, even when you think that I don't care anymore or may not have any feelings for you, I do. I have never stopped caring and loving you. Four years, that is a long time. We have had our ups and downs and a lot, a lot of things both good and bad, but it was all worth it. Knowing that at the end of the day I still loved you and you maybe loved me back. I don't want you gone, ever out of my life. I am so sorry for the change, and as soon as it happened I wanted it changed back so much that it hurt. Ever since it happened I wanted it back, whether you would ever believe me or not, I am the only one I suppose would know... I am so sorry and whether you believe me or not. I love you and hope that we will be able to talk about this and explain what happened and how. Please don't leave....
26-30, F