I Am Close With Someone Who Just Tried To Commit Suicide
Today I found out that a person I am very close with tried to commit a suicide on Thursday. I don't know what to think about it and what to do, I'm extremely upset.
I've been talking to this guy for 2 months, I know him for almost a year, but we haven't talked much until 2 months ago. Since then, we've spent a great amount of time talking, texting, sharing thoughts and simply getting to know each other. He's my closest friend now and he means a world to me. On Thursday I talked to him in the morning and we texted after that, he seemed normal and his voice wasn't even particularly sad when he left me a message on my voice mail around noon. He said he'll be offline for a couple of hours. He didn't talk to me for the rest of the day and for most of Friday, but I thought he went out with his friends. On Friday evening he texted me saying he's in the hospital because he had an accident and his arm is broken. He assured me he was going to be okay. Today I started asking questions about when he's going to get out of the hospital and how long the doctors say he'll need to be recovering and he finally told me the truth- that he tried to commit a suicide using Levomepromazine pills. He's been transported from the regular hospital to the mental facility.
It wasn't his first suicide attempt, he's had 2 of them before, he's been suffering from depression for over 8 years and almost 2 years ago he spent 7 months in a row at the same psychiatric ward he is at now.
My thoughts are a mess right now. Why didn't I notice anything? He kept saying he's happy with me and he seemed happy, at least when we were together. We didn't have a fight or anything like that. How can I help him? How to talk to him now? Why did he want to die, knowing that there will be so many people who love him missing him? Why did he decide to do such a horrible thing? Today he told me he doesn't regret being alive now, so why did he want to be dead, when everything in his life seemed to be working out? The hospital he is at is in my city, I really want to go and visit him, see how he's doing, but should I do that or not?
It hurts so bad to see such a close friend of mine in an emotional pain.
I've been talking to this guy for 2 months, I know him for almost a year, but we haven't talked much until 2 months ago. Since then, we've spent a great amount of time talking, texting, sharing thoughts and simply getting to know each other. He's my closest friend now and he means a world to me. On Thursday I talked to him in the morning and we texted after that, he seemed normal and his voice wasn't even particularly sad when he left me a message on my voice mail around noon. He said he'll be offline for a couple of hours. He didn't talk to me for the rest of the day and for most of Friday, but I thought he went out with his friends. On Friday evening he texted me saying he's in the hospital because he had an accident and his arm is broken. He assured me he was going to be okay. Today I started asking questions about when he's going to get out of the hospital and how long the doctors say he'll need to be recovering and he finally told me the truth- that he tried to commit a suicide using Levomepromazine pills. He's been transported from the regular hospital to the mental facility.
It wasn't his first suicide attempt, he's had 2 of them before, he's been suffering from depression for over 8 years and almost 2 years ago he spent 7 months in a row at the same psychiatric ward he is at now.
My thoughts are a mess right now. Why didn't I notice anything? He kept saying he's happy with me and he seemed happy, at least when we were together. We didn't have a fight or anything like that. How can I help him? How to talk to him now? Why did he want to die, knowing that there will be so many people who love him missing him? Why did he decide to do such a horrible thing? Today he told me he doesn't regret being alive now, so why did he want to be dead, when everything in his life seemed to be working out? The hospital he is at is in my city, I really want to go and visit him, see how he's doing, but should I do that or not?
It hurts so bad to see such a close friend of mine in an emotional pain.
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