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Monday 24th December 2012... Was upset when I went to bed last night
My new friend on Ep suddenly went off line- and despite me waiting up - she never reappeared. Not till after I went to bed
I got up early - tried to tell her how I felt- but was a bit sad - and didn't Want to upset her
So I tried to busy myself - went round parents - did shopping for them - tidied up- post office run etc
I got a message from my friend - whilst I was out shoping - she was very sorry - but her tone - she said that if I was upset- she would back off- I dont want her to back off - if anything- I want to chat more.
Not in an overpowering way-I don't want to own her- she wouldn't allow that - she's so independent - I don't mind her doing whatever she wants - but it's her sudden dissapearing that's upset me - then her offer to leave me alone for a little while- oh, I've pleaded her not to do that.
I'm having some dinner now, before I go to work for the evening- Xmas eve - and I'm working till 23:00
And I can't stop crying
It's all so painful. I hurt from the inside-out
I've got to keep doing things - to take my mind of the pains i feel at the moment
Can't write nomore today- tears running - can't see screen
Happy Xmas everybody
Mark xxx
My new friend on Ep suddenly went off line- and despite me waiting up - she never reappeared. Not till after I went to bed
I got up early - tried to tell her how I felt- but was a bit sad - and didn't Want to upset her
So I tried to busy myself - went round parents - did shopping for them - tidied up- post office run etc
I got a message from my friend - whilst I was out shoping - she was very sorry - but her tone - she said that if I was upset- she would back off- I dont want her to back off - if anything- I want to chat more.
Not in an overpowering way-I don't want to own her- she wouldn't allow that - she's so independent - I don't mind her doing whatever she wants - but it's her sudden dissapearing that's upset me - then her offer to leave me alone for a little while- oh, I've pleaded her not to do that.
I'm having some dinner now, before I go to work for the evening- Xmas eve - and I'm working till 23:00
And I can't stop crying
It's all so painful. I hurt from the inside-out
I've got to keep doing things - to take my mind of the pains i feel at the moment
Can't write nomore today- tears running - can't see screen
Happy Xmas everybody
Mark xxx
