i understand what you are going through .. not to the depth that you are feeling though ... sites like this are good... it allows you to express what you're really feeling, meet people and take control of your life again .. if you to vent or just want someone to talk .. feel free to write OK
Hugs hun

You need to make the journey to the most amazing place in the universe, home (even if you have to move in with your parents until you get somewhere of your own).

More than anything and anyone the loneliness is from your Bf and you need to move on to get hold of your life back. If you stay longer it is going to ruin you further. It might be hard to taken the decision at this hard time but I don't see you have any choice.

I can feel the pain you are having.. feeling totally alone when you are with someone is the worst thing you can feel in this world