I Feel Alone

Just a rant.

I already have depression and tons of other problems but to top it all off all of my friends and social life basically have dumped me
We used to spend days and nights together, they were a big part of why I looked forward to everyday and now they all just left.

One of them decided that I'm an idiot and cut me off, one of them dropped out of university and left the city because he can no longer afford living here and paying for his studies, one of them says hi to me occasionally and one of them used to be my roommate but we had a fight and fell off.

I don't make friends online, I never really felt comfortable doing so. My boyfriend is there for me but my former friends became sort of like my family and it's so hard seeing how bad things have become.🥺
And this isn't even my hometown so those people are all I really felt comfortable with.

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Pfuzylogic · M

We all need connection.
Use this as a refuge until you can become connected with people that are a bit more stable and sincerely care for you.

tutku · 26-30, F

@Pfuzylogic The guy who left the city used to live with me for the last 2 years because he lost his housing here, he was probably the closest person I ever had. Not having him is probably affecting me the most. I myself feel like just going back to my hometown but then again I don't wanna be stuck in a minimum wage job or something

Pfuzylogic · M

@tutku
Does the college have psychological counseling available. To have a relationship torn from you is a huge loss/

tutku · 26-30, F

@Pfuzylogic I already have a therapist but I haven't been following up recently

Pfuzylogic · M

@tutku
The disadvantage of a therapist is that you can’t be sure that they are committed to a successful outcome for you.
You are way too young to simply give in to substance misuse when your future lies before you.
In addition to making sure your therapist cares, I would also test your personal aptitude’s so that you know what you offer to the world.

tutku · 26-30, F

@Pfuzylogic I am honestly looking for another therapist but the two Ive had in the past insult me all the time pretending its "tough love" but now i'm not so sure anymore. How can i tell if a therapist cares?

Pfuzylogic · M

@tutku
Body language helps in telling their personal engagement in what you present. You can tell when they are paying attention or paying attention or busy with someone else.

Never sell yourself short!
You are worth the work.

tutku · 26-30, F

@Pfuzylogic I'll try to see if my university has anyone who can help, I'm so tired of telling new therapists my whole life story lmao
My dad isn't okay with me getting therapy so it usually has to be secret

Pfuzylogic · M

@tutku
You know how to take care of yourself and weaning yourself from substance abuse was the right thing to do. I don’t see why he is so opposed when he knows that you face real life challenges.

tutku · 26-30, F

@Pfuzylogic He wants me to be religious and thinks if I am religious I won't need therapy

Pfuzylogic · M

@tutku
I am/was religious and that doesn’t exclude therapy. I am careful with a therapist that is secular in belief. You have to choose what is appropriate for you whatever it is.