I Feel Alone

This is the other side of my story.
The part where my heart beats are rapid, my tears are in my throat.
I am scared! 😢
I hope I can do for us as it is needed.
Living here in the woods and so far away from others.
Just the two of us.
Our buddy will be here for just a day or two afterwards when we get home.
What if something goes wrong?
Can I handle my chores, living as we do by myself.
I can push myself to exhaustion and keep going till I fall.
Done it before, guess I am a hardhead.
Nothing matters more than my life with my loving husband.
I guess this is the flipside of how and where we live.
I wish I was young again.
I wish we had a good neighbor to check in on us.
Sorry for the whining.
I do not have the privilege to be feeling sorry for myself right now.
Ain't no time for this crap that is running thru my mind!!!!
ok... I said enough. Thanks for reading.
Got our buddy coming in around noon today.
One more cup of coffee and I will swallow my fear and get on with my doings.