I Feel Alone

This is the other side of my story.
The part where my heart beats are rapid, my tears are in my throat.
I am scared! 😢
I hope I can do for us as it is needed.
Living here in the woods and so far away from others.
Just the two of us.
Our buddy will be here for just a day or two afterwards when we get home.
What if something goes wrong?
Can I handle my chores, living as we do by myself.
I can push myself to exhaustion and keep going till I fall.
Done it before, guess I am a hardhead.
Nothing matters more than my life with my loving husband.
I guess this is the flipside of how and where we live.
I wish I was young again.
I wish we had a good neighbor to check in on us.
Sorry for the whining.
I do not have the privilege to be feeling sorry for myself right now.
Ain't no time for this crap that is running thru my mind!!!!
ok... I said enough. Thanks for reading.
Got our buddy coming in around noon today.
One more cup of coffee and I will swallow my fear and get on with my doings.

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Vivaci

Just have faith in God, my friend. Take it one day at a time. And trust that when you need help, you will get it. 🤗

There are support groups in the Church and hospital for patients family members. Check it out, they'll help. Don't be scared to ask for help from friends. 🤗💞

Echoing · 61-69, F

@Vivaci I broke down yesterday while my husband and I was talking to our dear buddy. I voiced my fears of … if all will be ok here at the house as we are gone. If I have remembered everything. If I had everything to make him comfortable as he cares for our home and fur babies. and if I need him to stay longer to help us out farther.

sigh...
He hugged me and said... I am here for you both as longer as needed.
I release my tears and ...all was well at that moment!!

I watched them this morning as my husband walked him thru the morning routine ..feeding the deer, filling bird feeders up and our fur babies, plus our morning walks with the dogs. This is an important part of us, our care of our slice of Heaven on Earth here. Simply pleasure of our lives! Plus... our home will be safe now as we are gone from it.

WOW... I am writing a book. But my mind is as full as can be. But..I am strong and tomorrow we begin this journey.

Thank you!!! 💞

Vivaci

@Echoing I have noticed that when we ask God for help and guidance, He always sends his angels in some form to help us.

Your friend is one such angel 😇, and I'm sure, you'll experience many such wonderful miracles wherever you go.

Sending you love and positive vibes, my dear friend. ✨✨💞💞💞✨✨