@Jinxey: listen my friend, when I got sick many years ago, a whole community of my friends rejected me. I went through what you are going through now. I had to learn to love myself again and that I was worth something. People can be cruel dude. But I got through it all and now there is not a person on this earth that could make me feel like that ever again. So you see, it actually made me a stronger and more together person in the end, and it will for you too if you just keep going and ride your way out of this hell youre going through.