I feel like I’m having to be a mom all over again

I mean, I’m always gonna be a mother, but it just feels like I don’t know it’s hard to explain. It’s like I’m learning how to parent my child all over again and I’m coming up with new solutions because this summer I’ve been slacking off and I let him get away with a lot of things and plus I would just send him to grandma’s house like I hardly saw my kids this summer maybe like three times a week I would see them the rest of the time I would send them to grandma’s because I just didn’t want to deal with them. And by the way, it’s not my two girls it’s my two boys when I say kids I’m mainly talking about those two not the two girls. My girls are literally angels!